Show me a part of you

anything will do

drop your pain on me

your greatest fears

submerge me in your tears

Scroll, scroll, scroll

me out of here

out of myself

this empty shell of self

I'm a void in human costume

better not zoom in

exhale yourself into me

don't let my pulse fool ya

I need your fake drama

Scroll, scroll, scroll

me out of here

out of myself

this empty shell of self

What's it like to feel

to hear your voice

to pull you close

your hand on my hips

hot skin on my lips

Scroll, scroll, scroll

me out of here

out of myself

this empty shell of self

Give me whiplash

a reason for a RealLife hashtag

lash out, make out, sweat it out

a cheek-to-cheek selfie

please don't tag me

All I do is

scroll, scroll, scroll

waiting for my life to start

all I do is

compare, copy, cope

end the loop

Reel me in

I'm lost

You can tease if you please

my skin is paper thin and will never grow thick

I am the black sheep watching your blind sleep.

I’d rather remain fragile and break from time to time

than turn bone into stone and live as zombie pantomime.

I don’t fit in here or anywhere

but I don’t care

so few of you look happy anyway.

I choose to be

silently loud

no need to fit in,

no struggle to stand out.

The road bends to my wish.

I'm walking beyond approval and fate

altered state is my normal.

Yell at me all you want, I can’t ever understand,

can’t look like her, can’t be like him, I’m not what you expect.

Don’t know how

to laugh at their jokes

to join in their chatter

to be together

but not connect.

I don’t fit in here or anywhere

but I don’t care

so few of you look happy anyway.

I choose to be

silently loud

no need to fit in,

no struggle to stand out.

The road bends to my wish.

I'm walking beyond approval and fate

altered state is my normal.

Remember what they used to say?

She’s shy.

She doesn’t talk.

Being out of phase

pays in strange ways:

The freak is free to speak.

No-where’s lonelier than among those so close.

What is love when it ignores?

What is blood when it clots?

I can’t breathe.

I need to leave.

Please forgive.

I choose to be

silently loud

no need to fit in,

no struggle to stand out.

The road bends to my wish.

I'm walking beyond approval and fate

altered state is my normal.