You can tease if you please

my skin is paper thin and will never grow thick

I am the black sheep watching your blind sleep.

I’d rather remain fragile and break from time to time

than turn bone into stone and live as zombie pantomime.

I don’t fit in here or anywhere

but I don’t care

so few of you look happy anyway.

I choose to be

silently loud

no need to fit in,

no struggle to stand out.

The road bends to my wish.

I'm walking beyond approval and fate

altered state is my normal.

Yell at me all you want, I can’t ever understand,

can’t look like her, can’t be like him, I’m not what you expect.

Don’t know how

to laugh at their jokes

to join in their chatter

to be together

but not connect.

I don’t fit in here or anywhere

but I don’t care

so few of you look happy anyway.

I choose to be

silently loud

no need to fit in,

no struggle to stand out.

The road bends to my wish.

I'm walking beyond approval and fate

altered state is my normal.

Remember what they used to say?

She’s shy.

She doesn’t talk.

Being out of phase

pays in strange ways:

The freak is free to speak.

No-where’s lonelier than among those so close.

What is love when it ignores?

What is blood when it clots?

I can’t breathe.

I need to leave.

Please forgive.

I choose to be

silently loud

no need to fit in,

no struggle to stand out.

The road bends to my wish.

I'm walking beyond approval and fate

altered state is my normal.